since sunday i've been working non-stop. finished most of it last night though. got to see adam again, for the first time since sunday morning.
what a fucking tit i was on saturday night.
we were lying in bed talking last night and i apologised to him for the way i acted on saturday and for ruining it all. he didn't say anything. i think he was letting me know that i had every right to feel like a tit.
he mentioned the fact that it will months before we get the chance to have a night alone like that again. was that him subtley pointing out that he'd have to wait even longer now? i think he's getting sick of it. i am too.
he's going to korea tomorrow morning - for two weeks. i'll miss him not being here. i'll miss him. a lot. i always need a boy to lean on. either emotionally or physically.
maybe this one's more than that though
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